Today is the two year anniversary of my mother’s death. I have been ok, today. Chewie has kept me busy, but she also gave me the space I needed to contemplate and be introspective(Vegetate) . I called Amanda, and Nanny and Granddad, and Orin to check in. Shyam called me to check up on me, which I thought was sweet. I am safe and sound, and I am in Malaysia, still. I promise a full update when I get home. I am keeping a diary of experiences so that I can blog about them when I get more stable Internet access.
I bought a bunch of new Bollywood movies and a new purse to cheer myself up. Chewie and her family have been nothing but wonderful, and I am having a great time! I miss my mom dearly, and I think I am galavanting all over the world, trying to search for something. I am always exploring the corners of the globe, and each street I traverse down, I am looking for a face, maybe her face. I am looking for my people, and I want to find the meaning that is supposed to be a part of this life. Certainly, I am happier now, than I ever was in high school and college, because I have learned to make my own happiness. I rely on me.
You know what I have learned during this two year journey? The world is the same everywhere. The US, Britain, Greece, Italy, Spain, France, Malaysia, Asia, Middle East, Russia, Africa, all the people and the ideas are the same. It is only the small details which differ. Was that the meaning I was to derive?
Instead of expounding on the meaning of life, I should be working on my dissertation. My mom would kick my butt, right now. I promise it is going along though! I will be done.
I love you, Mom! <3